Post by Hellion on Jan 24, 2018 18:03:50 GMT -5
the moments when you're in so deep
FEELS EASIER TO JUST SWIM DOWN
"That was a strong kick," She mused to herself as her body remained curled up tightly in the nursery. Luckily her nest was warm and kept away the chill of the leafbare wind. With her kits no longer kicking, she tucked her nose under her paws to help sleep. She barely closed her eyes until a sharp pain caused her to gasp. Attempting to get up, she found her legs shaky, unable to hold her weight. Something was wrong. A weakness overcame the calico she-cat as she tried to make any sort of sound. Her mouth was dry and the only sounds escaping her were panting gasp for air. Her claws had become fully extended with the pain that was now sprawling across her entire body.
Her distant memory of labor wasn't comparable to her current state. It was far too painful. Clawing at the cold ground Firestar forced her body to move, all she managed to do was crawl pitifully from her nest. "Help!" She cried with a hoarseness to her voice that prevented it from carrying very far. Turning back to examine her hind legs that were barely able to propel her forward, Firestar saw a mess of blood.
A renewed panic flooded her system, prompting the expecting queen to yowl with all her might. "HELP!!" A set of pawsteps came toward the nursery, it was Goldensong, an elder who had been visiting Firestar from time to time. The golden she-cat saw the look of pain, saw the mess and without further command she bolted toward Kindleflare's den.
Firestar begged for StarClan to keep her kits safe, told them to take all her lives at once as long as they made it safe and alive. However, her desperate prayer to StarClan was cut short as a painful shockwave of a contraction dug like hot stones into every fiber of her being. Was this some kind of penance? Wasn't losing Mapleheart punishment enough? Her distraction was short lived as another wave of pain wash over her, making her heart hammer in her chest.
Gasping for air, her amber eyes closed as she tried to relax into the process of birthing. Not that it helped much. As her kit came into the world, yowling for her mother, Firestar barely found the strength to nudge the she-kit. All her energy had been stolen early on and as she tried to focus on grooming the she-kit clean, another wave of pain forced her to lay flat. Why so much pain? Why wouldn't it end?
Broken down into a mess of pain and spasms, Firestar felt the birth of a second kit but couldn't put her head up high enough to even see if the kit was alive or not. All she could do was lay her head back, eyes glossy. It didn't take long for it to happen, Firestar felt the tug into death's embrace and for the first time she went willingly, she used it as an escape from the pain, a fact she'd never repeat to another living soul.
when Goldensong arrived with those needed to help with the birth, the elderly she-cat rushed to aid the newly born tom-kit and clean him up before she realized that Firestar had faded during the labor. Panic prickled in Goldensong as she sought out Kindleflare for help.
FIRESTAR
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note: firestar loses one life, kindleflare can tend to little kits and help when firstar comes back.