[Hellion]

Dandelionkit

Sickness brewed in the pit of the Dandelionpaw’s stomach, but it wasn’t the kind of sickness quelled by herbs or rest. In fact it was made worse by both. Dandelionpaw had occupied her paws with sorting what few herbs she managed to find in their new temporary home high up in the mountains. The rare breaks between checking on the ill or injured left little time for an actual rest. Which left Dandelionpaw to dwell on her dilemma.

StarClan had been silent, even on the night of her ceremony she had received only the most blurry of dreams. Unable to make out the features of her guide, she wasn’t even entirely sure it was indeed a cat. Scared it was a bad omen, Dandelionpaw kept the blurry dream to herself and focused on her training.

Her dreams did not sharpen and it was clear she had been chosen as previously thought. So when the news of the warning about the coming disaster rippled through the camp, Dandelionpaw sat beside her mentor, nodding along when the message was relayed. Guilt twisting in her gut for having not been able to share in the burden.

When the earth trembled and the world threatened to crumble under their paws, Dandelionpaw worked hard to aid those in her care and in the days to follow offered her skill and knowledge to tend to the wounded. But as the death toll climbed and the graphic injuries burned into her memory, Dandelionpaw found the path chosen to be impossible for her to continue on.

Without StarClan’s connection Dandelionpaw would leave her clan blind to dangers once she was the only one to fulfil the role. The thought of Kindleflare being gone seemed too terrible an idea, Dandelionpaw knew what she had to do.

There wasn’t much courage in her heart, she had to admit that. Her body quivered and heart pounded hard in her chest, she feared others could hear. Despite that she kept her task in mind, asking to talk to speak to the high ranks of her clan. It felt strange to command the adults in her life, herself barely 15 moons, but grateful nonetheless that they gathered to hear her.

She cleared her throat several times, a frog seeming to have caught in her throat. The words almost refused to form but after several deep breathes, she forced them out.

“I have something to tell you, but please don’t be angry with me,” Her voice trembled, but she kept going. “I can not be the medicine cat that LightningClan needs. I do not have a connection with StarClan, I thought it would come with time that if I believed and held the faith but they won’t talk to me,” A lump formed in her throat stopping her words so quickly she nearly coughed. “I believe in them so much, I pray every night but still they ignore me,” She added, pained from the struggle to make her turmoil known. “I don’t think faith is enough, and I know our clan deserves all the blessings of StarClan I just can’t help us find them,” Dandelionpaw sighed, gaze aimed entirely at the floor now, refusing to meet even her mentor’s eyes. “I need to step down and find a different path,” She had manged to glance in Owlstar’s direction but once again her head felI. Her voice cracked with the false start. “I am sorry I wasted your Kindleflare,” Dandelionpaw finished, ears downward and tail still, an image of a she-cat barely held together with the thinnest of spiderwebs.

Short steps, deep breath
Everything is alright
Chin up, I can't
Step into the spotlight


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Tags: Ghost the Undead Goddess BlooRey DVD

Notes: short

-written on phone, limited on ability to edit but muse hit hard

[BlooRey DVD]

"Some people see scars, and it is wounding they remember.
To me they are proof of the fact that there is healing.”

KIndleFlare

Her heart felt constricted in her chest, her mind still torn apart from the nightmares that had destroyed her sleep. Breathing felt like an impossible task, and it took everything in her to explain to Owlstar what she had seen. What StarClan had told her. Stars, she wanted to run and bury herself in everything that Batear was. To hide from the antagonizing fear that clung to her pelt like the thickest of mud. What she would do to erase the horrors of her vision from her mind, never to think upon it again. But if what she'd seen was correct, this would be far from the last of the fear she would feel.

It wasn't until a small voice at her side spoke up that the medicine cat found herself forced out of the tumultuous darkness in her mind. Startled by the sudden interruption, yet strangely grateful all the same, Kindleflare's dark amber eyes flashed to Dandelionpaw. Ginger ears pressed forward to listen to the younger cat's words, feeling her heart squeeze with every word the young she-cat added. There was disappointment in the medicine cat's heart, but it was not disappointment toward her apprentice.

She was disappointed that Dandelionpaw had not been StarClan's choice. Putting aside the fear that made her white-socked legs tremble just so, Kindleflare leaned forward to press her nose to her apprentice's forehead. "Kn-Know that... Th-Though they s-speak n-not to y-you, S-StarClan loves y-you all the s-same, Dandelionp-paw. I... I ap-pologize that I c-could not t-teach you th-through this, th-that this p-particular problem is b-beyond my c-capabilities. F-For, much l-like you, o-or Owls-star, I a-am b-but a cat." Pulling back with a gentle smile on her features, the ginger healer lay her tail over her apprentice's shoulders.

"L-Look not u-upon me w-with s-such... Appreh-hension. I a-am not angry. And I d-do not b-believe O-Owlstar to b-be either. Though I c-cannot s-speak for our C-Clan leader, I f-for one am p-proud of you. P-Proud that you w-were able to p-put your Clan above y-your desires. Th-That... That is the base of wh-what it t-takes to be a medicine c-cat. Th-Though you may ch-choose to s-step down and p-pursue another p-path, p-please know... You w-will always b-be my apprentice. I will a-always c-consider m-myself b-blessed to h-have been given the ch-chance to t-teach you. And... I h-hope that wherever your n-new path m-may take you... You w-will not f-forget what I h-have taught, and you will n-not regret w-what you h-have learnt."

Shifting again, she leaned her forehead against Dandelionpaw's, the elder she-cat closing her eyes as she meowed more quietly. "Th-Thank you. For a-allowing me to sh-show you a part of m-my world, even i-if only for a m-moment."

Deep in her heart, there was something for which Kindleflare was glad. She thanked StarClan that Dandelionpaw had not bore witness to what she had. For it threatened to break even her, and she would wish this vision upon no one.

Medicine Cat of LightningClan

97 moons. ~500 words. Hellion