Post by Deleted on Mar 7, 2019 22:02:37 GMT -5
Ashflight had been feeling… off, for some time now. She hadn't confided in Russethawk, not wanting to worry the goofy furball, and also not wanting him to get Dewfrost involved. The independent she-cats was far too stubborn to seek out a medicine cat when nothing was obviously wrong with her, when the only thing she could say was that she felt strange but couldn't quite explain how. And she also wasn't sure how she felt about their new medicine cat. Her paranoia and difficulties with trust had come a long way since rejoining the Clan, but after what had happened between Rushwhisker and Swanfeather, her opinion of Dewfrost was rather up in the air at the moment.
However, as she began to tire more easily and more quickly and noticed how suddenly she felt heavier, and her appetite had become rather voracious as it had never been in her life… she realized on her own just what was happening. Trepidation and excitement mixed within her at the idea that she would soon become a mother. For all her confidence in her abilities as a warrior, she was less certain about her skills as a mother. Old guilt about failing to save Icepaw was dredged up when she had thought she had finally managed to forgive herself. What if she couldn't protect her kits either?
Fortunately, she did not have to face that possibility alone. For all her doubt about herself, she did know one thing. Russethawk would make a wonderful father. Perhaps he would be able to make up for any shortcomings of her own when it came to parenting. Padding toward the ruddy tom as she re-entered camp from getting a quick drink, she sighed at the realization that she would need to move to the nursery very soon and stop her warrior duties. It was going to be torture to be holed up in camp day after day, but with her energy dwindling more and more every day, it wasn't like she would be able to do much anyway.
With an annoyed flick of her tail, she brushed against Russethawk's side, “I have something to tell you. Come for a walk with me.” A nervous knot roiled in her belly like an agitated snake all of a sudden. The prospect of telling another cat just made it seem more real, and though she knew she would love her kits, knew that she had hoped she and Russethawk might have a litter together, soon even, she was suddenly unsure just how ready she was for it all. Tiny helpless lives would be wholly dependent on her and it was starting to feel a bit overwhelming.
When the two of them had gone a suitable distance from camp for privacy, she turned to look at him, trying to hide all her doubt and worry and not entirely succeeding. So she tried for humor, “Have you guessed yet, or are you really just a clueless furball?” Surely he had noticed by now how easily winded she got, or how much more she had been eating? Or even her weight gain. Though she wasn't yet huge by any means, it was finally starting to become more apparent as something more than just newleaf bounty filling out leafbare leanness.
Fawn
NL 2: A bright and sunny day warms the valley, a light breeze makes the day comfortable.
However, as she began to tire more easily and more quickly and noticed how suddenly she felt heavier, and her appetite had become rather voracious as it had never been in her life… she realized on her own just what was happening. Trepidation and excitement mixed within her at the idea that she would soon become a mother. For all her confidence in her abilities as a warrior, she was less certain about her skills as a mother. Old guilt about failing to save Icepaw was dredged up when she had thought she had finally managed to forgive herself. What if she couldn't protect her kits either?
Fortunately, she did not have to face that possibility alone. For all her doubt about herself, she did know one thing. Russethawk would make a wonderful father. Perhaps he would be able to make up for any shortcomings of her own when it came to parenting. Padding toward the ruddy tom as she re-entered camp from getting a quick drink, she sighed at the realization that she would need to move to the nursery very soon and stop her warrior duties. It was going to be torture to be holed up in camp day after day, but with her energy dwindling more and more every day, it wasn't like she would be able to do much anyway.
With an annoyed flick of her tail, she brushed against Russethawk's side, “I have something to tell you. Come for a walk with me.” A nervous knot roiled in her belly like an agitated snake all of a sudden. The prospect of telling another cat just made it seem more real, and though she knew she would love her kits, knew that she had hoped she and Russethawk might have a litter together, soon even, she was suddenly unsure just how ready she was for it all. Tiny helpless lives would be wholly dependent on her and it was starting to feel a bit overwhelming.
When the two of them had gone a suitable distance from camp for privacy, she turned to look at him, trying to hide all her doubt and worry and not entirely succeeding. So she tried for humor, “Have you guessed yet, or are you really just a clueless furball?” Surely he had noticed by now how easily winded she got, or how much more she had been eating? Or even her weight gain. Though she wasn't yet huge by any means, it was finally starting to become more apparent as something more than just newleaf bounty filling out leafbare leanness.
Fawn
NL 2: A bright and sunny day warms the valley, a light breeze makes the day comfortable.